Stephen,I wonder when you left my womb for heaven
Did you know how deeply I loved you?
Did you know the hope in our souls?
The longing in our hearts to know you?
I wonder from the darkness of my womb
Did you see The Light?
Did you suffer pain?
Or were you swept into Jesus’ arms
And made instantly whole?
I often wonder how our lives would be
Different because of you sharing it,
Day by day adding to our tapestry call family.
I wonder what type of personality you would have-
Your gifts, your skills, your heart.
I wonder so many things.
Though my heart still bears an ache
That began before you were conceived,
I am strangely comforted.
For I wonder what you experience right now in heaven.
I am truly grateful that you never tasted the bitter
Of this earthly life, this fallen world.
You have been graciously spared.
I grieve our loss.
I rejoice in your life.
For your life reminds me that
These earthly years are but a vapor.
Though I never saw your face,
One day I will.
And though I never held you in my arms
I have always held you in my heart.